June 7, 2003

Today is the second day in a row where there is noticeably less pain in my shoulder than the day before. I hope it is a trend. I see myself getting better. I am still having trouble sleeping but the futon is helping. I have to give big ups to Abdullah for totally rocking the Grog Shop last night in spite of a certain unnamed member of Red Giant trying to trash the stage and bust up their equipment while Abdullah was getting their rock on. Rock and roll sabotage. Today. Laurie was in West Virginia visiting family. I kept the search for a new place going while she was away with many phone calls. I love working the phone but I hate looking for a place to live. You know what I am saying. We have some places to look at tomorrow. I have no hope. It was a pretty lonely and uneventful day. I kept busy around the house doing chores in the Wu-Tang gimped up style. Dirt stopped over. I rapped with Jamie from Boulder, the artisit Tom Ericsson and Baby Fea on the phone. I watched VH-I Classic and Led Zeppelin on DVD. It is playing right now in the other room. Loudly. I am about to go to the Greenhornes with Dirt and old lady. And hopefully my old lady too. If she gets back in time. I am feeling no pain.

On the controversial selling the house deal because nobody seems to understand. I know it seems incomprehensible. Here’s the deal: We are not judged by what we own or where we lived or what kind of car we drove or how many vacations we took. Ultimately. We are judged by what we did with our lives. Most people do nothing. I am trying to do something more with my life than go to the office. I am trying to do something. I hope that clears things up. Probably not.

posted by Thea at 9:51 PM

June 5, 2003

I found that if I lie on my back with my arm on a pillow, I feel no pain. So guess what I have been doing for the last couple of hours? Guess what I am going to be doing as soon as I am done BLOGGING? I worked all day today at home. I trust than if I never have to go into the office again, I will still be productive. I just can’t sit still. I still keep saying to myself, as soon as you get all this various non stuff done, then you can sit down and relax. I keep on working. I never get around to relaxing. I just keep working so I can stop. But never stopping. While hurt, everything (washing dishes, making the bed, etc.) takes longer. I always have something to do. It is OK. I am still alive. I am not working tomorrow. I am going out to lunch with my mother who wants to see it for herself that I am not dead. I am hoping to go out this weekend. Abdullah/Red Giant tomorrow. The Greenhornes on Saturday. If you see me out, don’t touch me. I am serious. I am in pain. Don’t touch me. I am going to watch “Death Wish” for the first time tonight. I am looking forward to it.

posted by Thea at 8:10 PM

June 4, 2003

I am BLOGGING without my sling on. I feel naked without my sling. I am in pain. But it is a different kind of pain. So that is nice. I worked at home today. I actually got a lot done. I was able to get in the zone. I am still taking many phone calls from well wishers. People are reappearing. I have a large rock and roll web. For that, I am grateful. Laurie fell in love with a place in Lakewood, OH today. Pray (or something) that we get it. The clock is ticking. Everything that seemed important to me last week is becoming important again. A sign of recovery. I am dealing with it. Pain. Time. Silence. These are things that I dwelt on today. I laughed a few times. I was excessively aggressive for effect twice. I am eating too much. “When you’re feeling bored or blue, watch out for the munchies.” Baby Fea, what day is it?

posted by Thea at 10:04 PM

June 3, 2003

We have less than a month to find someplace to live. Scary. I had to try to get a note from my doctor to go back to work. Irritating. Talking to people on the phone all day. Depressing. Took off the sling. Took a shower. Felt pain. Haircut at different barber. Talkative son of a bitch. Hanging out with Big Al and old lady. No casserole. Reminiscing. Looking forward. Feeling it come together. Seeing their eyes light up when I tell them what I am going to write. Watching them as they start believing. I can sell two college professors. I can sell anybody. It is going to work. I have to remind Laurie of that fact. It is going to work. More signing. Hopefully last signing. I don’t know what hit me. A few more hours until she comes home. Yes. I miss her. That is why we are doing this. Because I miss her. I am going to see if I can work at home tomorrow. I am going to see how that goes. One year at new office. It seems like only yesterday. Or a year ago. Too much pain in the arm. That’s it.

posted by Thea at 6:43 PM

June 1, 2003

Led Zeppelin should have titled that DVD set 101 variations on a theme based on “Dazed and Confused” or more versions of “Communication Breakdown” than really necessary. Certainly not necessary. But totally wanted. It almost made my day. Almost. We got two offers on the house today. It looks we are moving. If we only knew where. Well. We have two weeks to figure that one out. That should be plenty of time. Right? My arm hurts right now. I am going to stop typing. But not before saying big ups to my wife. She just washed me in a slop sink. I am saying that tomorrow’s Assholier than Thou Good Times Happy Friends Monday Morning Radio Show will be the best one ever. I am calling my shot. Goodnight.

posted by Thea at 10:23 PM